What could possibly go wrong?

I find myself in the bizarre position of trying to make myself depressed. This 5-week hypomania w/ occasional mixed state is going to be the death of me at this rate, and I’m not exaggerating. I’ve had enough of it; it’s evil. I’m taking it personally: it hates me.

So, I’m trying to make myself depressed – a state of being I’m much more self-aware in. I’m not suicidal when I’m depressed; just when I’m hypomanically mixed.

What could possibly go wrong?

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